Dachuny waves come less often, but they still come at least every other day, and there's a persistent feeling of restlessness that lives in my chest; like things aren't right with the world since the moment he left it. We have a new animal in the house, a beautiful cat, who does some things that Dachuny used to do. Sometimes she will sit up with her legs out that reminds us of him, things like that.
What is nice about her is that she's so different than dogs, (of course I realize it's bc she is not one), but she allows me to have complete space for my grief over Dachuny, and is at the same time, some purpose and routine back in our lives. It's nice to have a little animal in the house again and she couldn't have been a better cat.
A friend's small dog came over on the weekend, and I was absolutely devastated when I watched the pup walk by and heard the little clicks of his paws on the wood floor that I hadn't heard since Dachuny was here. I was wrecked for awhile and had to take a break in his room.
Grief is a heartbreaking but interesting thing to experience. And it does truly feel like it's just love with nowhere to go...
I miss our sweet dear boy so much 💔
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